I had been seeing this bumper sticker a lot lately and quite frankly it was making me a little sad...but no more now that my man is a "REAL Man"....yep, my hubby invited Jesus to be his savior last week!! PRAISE JESUS!!! There is a new name in the Lamb's Book of Life!!
After I accepted Jesus last year, the Holy Spirit led me to read the Bible. In the beginning I hid my reading from R because I was afraid he would think I was weird. After praying for direction to find a church I was directed to the very church I had vowed I would never again enter as a teen. One thing that I have been learning lately is that we should all be very careful about telling God that we refuse to do anything. I am convinced this is a pride issue. I had a few other chruches in mind that I would have been happy to attend...but no, God sent me right back to where I had dug in my heels and screamed "No!". It took me about 3 months to obey His direction because I was too afraid R would completely reject a Baptist church (plus, honestly I was a little annoyed). We cannot be fully sbmitted to God's will if we are still trying to direct our own life.
God's timing really is so perfect. When I first started attending worship with the kids, R's work schedule had him at work every Sunday morning. So basically we had already started going before he could say no, which I just know he would have had I just suggested we all start going as a family. Then after 3 weeks his schedule that he had been on for over a year just magically, mysteriously (not really hee hee!) changed and he was suddenly off Sundays (God is so good!). His very first day at chruch he heard a message about the Importance of Fathers as Spiritual Leaders at Home. The next week the message was Do You Have a Person You Know Who is a Hard Case? You Think They Will Never Come to Jesus? Don't Give Up! I should have listened harder to this one lol!
The Holy Spirit began pushing me to go forward, profess my faith and ask for baptism... again I told God "No, I can't!! That will totally freak R out!"...the harder I protested, the harder He pushed me until after about a month a cement truck could not have stopped me from running off down the isle and jumping in that water! Again, be careful, what you tell God you will not do...so far everything I have refused to do I have now done and realize that those things were required of me out of obedience for a greater purpose. If I were still sitting at home reading the Bible in secret do you think R would have come to Jesus by now? God's ways are higher than our ways and when we obey He richly blesses us!
Over the past few months R had a lot of questions and I did my best to answer them. Honestly at times I know the answers were not my words, they were His. Having a husband by my side who loved Jesus was not even something I had dared to hope would ever happen... oh I prayed for it to happen...A.L.O.T! But I was afraid to even hope, because really I thought the chances were slim... BUT GOD. Never again will I be afraid to hope for anything because...
"With men this is impossible; but with God all things are possible." Matthew 19:26